Endings and Beginnings

I've entered what is probably my last month doing bench science.

I have mixed feelings about this. It's kind of like a really bad and slow break-up. Science, we've had some great times, but this really isn't working anymore....

It's hard not to feel like a failure. But this is how it goes for most people.

Part of the failure thing is probably because my beginning is very open ended. Slow down... Spend more time with the kid. Get life back to calm. Then figure out what it is I would like to do, and how best to go about doing it.

I'm luck I can take this break, but it's a mixed blessing not to have a finicial goad pushing you forward.

The kid has changed daycares. So it is both an end and beginning for him too. I miss the old place, but I don't miss the driving into Bethesda during rush hour to drop him off or pick him up. My husband is doing the dropping and picking now. I have an extra hour of work, and I'm suprised to feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.